Yet I will.

When its late at night and I have time to reflect, the silence in my heart feels like a heavyweight. There's been something missing for quite some time now. At the back of my head, I always knew what that void was. I just tried to ignore it. At this point though, I don't think I can hold it in anymore. Broke down after such a long time. I've been so far away from Him I feel guilty. So extremely guilty.

I've been so busy the past couple of months that I just put devotion time and church time in the backseat. And I guess I got comfortable with that and continued with that lifestyle even though I wasn't busy anymore. There was always that nagging guilt-tripping voice in my head that said I had to do something about it but I've always managed to brush it off. But now, I just feel like I've been so out of sync with Him that I'm so lost.

So lost with myself, lost in my walk with Him, lost in just, well, everything. And I am not proud of where I am right now in my walk with Him. I've got to make a change, get out of this "lazy" phase.

Even when I can't hear You, I will trust You Lord. I will not forget that You hung on a cross, You bled and died for me. Praying for my faith in You to strengthen.


xoxo, elvyna.

Seeing you.

Can't wait for this weekend. Its been such a long week this week in the Anaesthetic Department I just wish it'd end sooner!

xoxo, elvyna.

Brunei.

Visited Brunei for the first time ever for a week just before I came back to UK. It was definitely an experience and a very 'different' country but I didn't find it as boring as most people were warning me about.

There wasn't much to see there and it took just about 2 days before I saw and visited most places.

Sultan's palace.

Fluffy clouds. It was scorching hot in Brunei though (I got a shorts tan line)

One and only McD's in Brunei.

Beautiful scenery at the Empire Hotel beach.

Us on the carousel at the Jerudong Park amusement park/playground.

Picture perfect shot of the Sultan Omar Ali Saifuddin mosque and the boat.

Sat in air-conditioned places every chance we got.

Kampong Ayer river cruise.

Beautiful sunny day with clear skies. Awesome view of the water villages and schools on water.

Tried the local Bruneian food- Ambuyat (some tree sap thing with a gluey texture).

Hated it. Couldn't even swallow it.

Tried tonkeng (chicken ass) at the night market. Different texture than I'm normally used to but delicious marinade.

New found favourite fast food chain that's only found in Brunei - Jollibee. Awesome spaghetti.

Toy Proboscis monkey to make up for the fact that I didn't see a real one in Brunei.

Goodbye Brunei.

Thanks for having me. It was fun!

xoxo, elvyna.

Mine.

At this moment there are 6, 840, 507, 003 people in the world. Some are happy, some are sad. Some have lost, some have found. Some are at war, some are at peace. 


Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls.


Sometimes, all you need is one.


xoxo, elvyna.

Healthy teeth (:

Another thing to thank God for : Healthy straight teeth! (:

Went to the dentist today (2nd time in my entire life!) for scaling and polishing and he was amazed at how straight and healthy my teeth and gums were despite never wearing braces before. He was so impressed that he gave me a pack of toothpaste to "reward" me for taking good care of my teeth growing up. Teehee. Small thing, I know, but it totally made my day (:

Also, he said my wisdom teeth were showing but they're perfectly straight so I wouldn't suffer when it comes out. Let's hope that's true!

I love my dentist! :D

xoxo, elvyna.