Promise me.

Today:
- wasn't a great day.
- was a long day in the hospital.
- I sobbed so uncontrollably for no apparent reason.
- I miss the family and home so much after being here for so long.
- I feel so lonely although I know I'm not alone.
- I just want to curl up in my bed and be left alone.

xoxo, elvyna.

New beginnings.

Sometimes, it really is as simple as letting it all out and letting go just to breathe again.

xoxo, elvyna.

Isle of Wight.

So I'm on my 5th week now of Medicine in Practice (MiP) placement at St Mary's Hospital in the Isle of Wight. Things have been going great. Ended last week with a bang at the GP practice I was in for 2 weeks. Did really well on the assessment at the end and my GP was very pleased with me. That's a good start right? (:

Anyways, here are some pics of the island and stuff when the boy came down over the weekends to see me.

The hospital;s main entrance.

Us starting our adventure day (:

Yarmouth Harbour. Pretty sailboats. I want one too if the weather was nicer in England!

The Needles Park, Alum Bay. Pretty lousy gloomy day.

Chairlift down Needles Park :/ Steep!

Olympic Torch relay at the Park. Tried to get away from the crowd of people there.

Ventnor Pier.

Ventnor Beach. Rocks galore.

Local island-made ice cream (: I must've had this like 3-4 times now since I've been on the island.

The Spyglass Inn for lunch/dinner. Recommended by Michelin (:

His: Oriental Style Beef. Super yummy.

Mine: Half lobster with New Potatoes. Fresh lobster. YUM YUM (:

Walking along the coloured sand beach on Ventnor.

Finished the day off with a slice of Chocolate Indulgence from Chocolate Apothecary in Ryde (my GP place).

All in all, a very exciting but short weekend spent on visiting places and eating (: Weather could've been better (Was pretty scary when it started pouring as we were on the chairlift), but I'm not complaining, we still got around.

Missing the boy already. Oh wells..

xoxo, elvyna.

Weekend of food (:

The past weekend was an awesome one. Went back to Southampton to spend some time with the boy. Made lots of nice yummy food to make up for the dull, bland food I had during the week of Anaesthetic placement in the Isle of Wight.

Also had a lovely time starting and finishing a Singapore drama series called The Oath about doctors with the boy. Gosh, talk about drama marathon. The ending of the series was a bit sad though :( Anyways, here are the pics of the food we had over the weekend.

Dinner: Mint Lamb meatballs penne pasta with garlic bread and belleverde broccoli.

Breakfast: Ham on garlic bread with hard boiled egg.

Also baked two loaves of Chocolate Raspberry banana bread/cake to munch on while watching the series. Gave the other loaf to the boy to bring to placements.

My tummy has had a happy weekend (:

Now back to a week of GP placements and tasteless repetitive meals everyday!

xoxo, elvyna.

Yet I will.

When its late at night and I have time to reflect, the silence in my heart feels like a heavyweight. There's been something missing for quite some time now. At the back of my head, I always knew what that void was. I just tried to ignore it. At this point though, I don't think I can hold it in anymore. Broke down after such a long time. I've been so far away from Him I feel guilty. So extremely guilty.

I've been so busy the past couple of months that I just put devotion time and church time in the backseat. And I guess I got comfortable with that and continued with that lifestyle even though I wasn't busy anymore. There was always that nagging guilt-tripping voice in my head that said I had to do something about it but I've always managed to brush it off. But now, I just feel like I've been so out of sync with Him that I'm so lost.

So lost with myself, lost in my walk with Him, lost in just, well, everything. And I am not proud of where I am right now in my walk with Him. I've got to make a change, get out of this "lazy" phase.

Even when I can't hear You, I will trust You Lord. I will not forget that You hung on a cross, You bled and died for me. Praying for my faith in You to strengthen.


xoxo, elvyna.

Seeing you.

Can't wait for this weekend. Its been such a long week this week in the Anaesthetic Department I just wish it'd end sooner!

xoxo, elvyna.

Brunei.

Visited Brunei for the first time ever for a week just before I came back to UK. It was definitely an experience and a very 'different' country but I didn't find it as boring as most people were warning me about.

There wasn't much to see there and it took just about 2 days before I saw and visited most places.

Sultan's palace.

Fluffy clouds. It was scorching hot in Brunei though (I got a shorts tan line)

One and only McD's in Brunei.

Beautiful scenery at the Empire Hotel beach.

Us on the carousel at the Jerudong Park amusement park/playground.

Picture perfect shot of the Sultan Omar Ali Saifuddin mosque and the boat.

Sat in air-conditioned places every chance we got.

Kampong Ayer river cruise.

Beautiful sunny day with clear skies. Awesome view of the water villages and schools on water.

Tried the local Bruneian food- Ambuyat (some tree sap thing with a gluey texture).

Hated it. Couldn't even swallow it.

Tried tonkeng (chicken ass) at the night market. Different texture than I'm normally used to but delicious marinade.

New found favourite fast food chain that's only found in Brunei - Jollibee. Awesome spaghetti.

Toy Proboscis monkey to make up for the fact that I didn't see a real one in Brunei.

Goodbye Brunei.

Thanks for having me. It was fun!

xoxo, elvyna.