November 18, 2009

Maybe we're friends, maybe we're more, Maybe it's just my imagination.


Got a really encouraging email today. Thanks, you know who you are (: Wouldn't have made it through without you always by my side through the years. Hugs.

I wish I wasn't so weak.
I wish I wouldn't always faint for no reason.
I wish I wouldn't make grandma worry :(
I wish I can still end up becoming a doctor despite it all.....

xoxo, elvyna.

November 17, 2009

Let it rain down and wash everything away,maybe tomorrow the sun will shine.


Hey Blog ( i should name you),

Long time no talk. I'm really bored right now. And I know I should be studying. I really want to study but nothing I read seems to be going in my head :( It' so depressing you know? And the stress is making me sick to the core. I hate this feeling. Exam's next Thursday. Do you think I can pass the exam? My PMS matching depends on this exam. I can't afford to screw up, which is why I'm even more stressed :/ I don't know if you know what I'm saying. I just need to rant. Blog blog blog.

If only you could reply me. DAMN. My brain's gone seeing how i expect my blog to reply me (o_O)


ARGH! I want a SUPER brain! capacity= unlimited! if only..

I miss my best friend in UK! :( Felt the rush of nostalgia when I talked to her last week. I miss her! :( Exam stress, go away! I don't like how you're screwing with how I'm feeling :( :(

xoxo, elvyna.

November 10, 2009

And when you left, you kissed my lips. I never want to see you unhappy.

Just had Rakuzen for the first time today. It's pretty nice actually (: Love the soft shell crab maki though I would prefer if it was more bite-size like at Zanmai's. Tried fish also for the first time :/ salmon (RAW ok?!) and some other weird cooked fish. The bf la, made forced me to try some -_- Took a teeny bite then gave it back to him. ew. Now I remember why I don't eat fish. It's just disgusting :S

I'm happy! Maybe it's the present, or maybe, it's just you. Such an unexpected surprise! heh.

One more month baby (:

xoxo, elvyna.

November 05, 2009

Set me free, leave me be. I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity.

Summatives are on the 26th of November. This week's the first week for renal system, and also the first week I'm starting to study. A bit late right? Sigh. Dunno why but I just don't have any motivation at all to study this semester compared to previous ones. Is it because it's not an EOS? or because I've been too involved in extra-curricular stuffs? I don't know, but whatever it is, I better start speeding up and studying right if I want to do well.

3 weeks left, 3 systems more, am i game for it?
God PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help me :(

And I don't know why but it's still bugging me that my parents forgot my birthday :( *sigh* should just let go and move on :( but it keeps staying in my head. arrgh. I'm focusing waay too much on this. damn unhealthy.

Here I am, and i stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.

xoxo, elvyna.

November 01, 2009

You loved me cause I'm fragile when I thought that I was strong. But you touch me for a little while, and all my fragile strength is gone.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Psalm 9:9
The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.

Isaiah 53:4-5
Surely he has borne our infirmities and carried our diseases; yet we accounted him stricken, struck down by God, and afflicted. But he was wounded for our transgressions, crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the punishment that made us whole, and by his bruises we are whole.

I'll be praying for her. It hurts me to see you hurt :(

xoxo, elvyna.