Hoping.

Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I just hope you know what you're doing.
I hope you don't always sacrifice me in every decision you make.
I just hope.. you understand my heart :(

xoxo, elvyna.

And I am torn, to do what i have to. To say things I dont mean and will never ever mean.

Because life would be easier for you.
Because you'll be happier.
Because you never wanted it to work.
Because nothing I say means anything to you.
Because it's what you wanted.
Because I want to see you happy no matter what.

and finally, because I love you so much...

~Can we get it back to the way it used to be?~

xoxo, elvyna.

Feelings inside :(

I wonder all those times when you look into my eyes and watch my tears fill up,
Does it break your heart or even crack it a little?
Sometimes I wonder maybe, perhaps maybe to you it never really mattered.

There were times when I tried talking, not knowing what I’m saying.
Afraid, knowing you don’t want me to say anything as it won't make any difference,
But deep inside of me are words waiting to be spoken.
Words, that I still want to say despite my broken heart.

Eventually these words may forever stay in my heart, locked, and put away.
Then again I wonder, are there any words locked in yours too?

I wonder, but again I will never know.
I force a smile only because I know you want me too.
I force a laugh, only so that you think I’ve pulled through.
I pretend to let you go, just so I can see you smile again.

Why am I doing this, I really wonder.

xoxo, elvyna.

CG again.

So CG today was pretty good. Joanne's doing a really good job:) The ice breaker was sooo fun! It was a game of pin-the-tail-on-the-donkey just that in this case, it was a dog. Sabrina Ong drew it. She's superb in drawing as you can see from the pic. So yes, the tail (the red broccoli-lookalike thing) is supposed to be "pinned" on the butt. The person has to be blind folded and then spun around in 10 circles before attempting to pin. It was pretty hard as there was only one person who was giving the right instructions whereas everyone else was shouting all kinds of direction. It sounded like a market actually. Hahaha. Anyways, almost everyone pinned the tails "sort of" correctly except ManLo and Wei Chin. So I've added photos of theirs. HAHA.
Wei Chin's pinned up tail.
ManLo's :)

Teehee. Well, the topic today was on Daniel chapter 1. To sum it all up, it pretty much teaches about having the courage to stand firm to what we believe in and not to compromise even though it is tough times. To choose to make a stand and have the integrity in us. And at the end of it all, God's rewards will manifest in our lives. Yup. That's basically it. But then Joanne made split us into 2 groups and made us draw Daniel (or at least what we thought he was like then) and boy, my group's drawing, WeiChin, Natasha, Jeremy and I, were hilarious!! Our Daniel had 8 packs, is 6 feet 2 inches tall, has blue eyes, curly shoulder-length hair and he wears a tee shirt that says "I am smart". How cool kan? Ultimate guy :) Joanne prayed for me today. She made me a tear a bit. Oh wells :)

Left pic (Joanne, Jae Ric, Robyn, ManLo's group) drawing, Right (ours) :P

Went to MidValley after class. Dead tired now. Gotta do PBL. *sighs*

xoxo, elvyna.

Some quotes..

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, and forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance; take it. If it changes your life; let it. Nobody said that it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead keep your head up high and gaze into heaven for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal.

Count the garden by the flowers, never by the leaves that fall. Count your life with smiles and not the tears that roll.

The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart. ~Helen Keller~

xoxo, elvyna.

Birthdays!!!

Dad, Tiff and Aaron Hee's Birthday on 080808!! <3

So I had lunch in the afternoon with daddy, then Tiff's party at night. Manlo came for T's party too (which made everyone think he was my bf). HAHA. Anyways, the party was pretty fun. It was planned quite professionally too. There was a dance floor, a DJ, a pro bartender (free flow of any alcoholic drinks the whole night), pro photographer, and food caterers including waiter. Yea. Trust T to pull off a party like this, and she did. Lousy host she claims she is, I beg to differ :)Anyways, so the night started off with us watching Olympics opening ceremony- while waiting for other people to arrive. Had dinner, which was pretty yummy I must say :P Then after many many MANY picture-taking and cam-whoring, the DJ started to play some nice tracks and yea, people started dancing on the dance floor. Pretty soon, everyone was tipsy and all from the drinks served by the bartender. Manlo and I were sober and doing cheerleading on the dance floor. Now, that's really funny la but what to do? We couldn't dance and were pulled on the dance floor. hahaha. Oh wells, all in all, a fun night :) With Manlo (my "so-called' boyfriend for the night)
The backdrop most of us used to take pics :) Pretty right?
Best-T!View of the dance floor from 2nd floor. haha. There were lotsa spotlights and even asmoke machine. Cool-ness :P
Daddy!! Me loves him :)

Eeeks! Just remembered I haven't gotten birthday presents for T, daddy and Aaron! :S

xoxo, elvyna.

Cell Group

You have been my defense and refuge in the day of my trouble. Psalms 59:16

I went for cell group in IMU yesterday. I didn't really want to go at first cos it would mean I would have to go to uni at 10.30am instead of the usual 1.30pm for classes. It would also mean I had to wake up at 9 something as well. But I went anyways, ManLo did persuade me to go too.

Anyways, the point is, I cannot be happier that I went. It was the first CG and the head is Joanne and her assistant is ManLo. The topic : Friendship. The subtopics and all: Broken relationships, making friends, etc.. I felt that it was a topic which really touched me in all ways especially due to the things I've been going thru lately. I got to listen to different point of views from the other ppl who attended CG and I was truly inspired in a way. Listening to them, I learnt sooo much about what it means to be a friend to someone else. What it takes to mend a broken relationship, why it is important to make friends and all. My friends at CG were really a bunch of encouraging ppl. I think I should hang out with them more. I'd learn a thing or two I know.

This CG taught me to open my eyes and look at things from a different perspective. Good friends are really a gem, they're hard to come by, and once they do, we should cherish them. Sure, we may have fights and disagreements, but as friends, all these can be overcomed. And the one and only bestest best friend we should have who we can always count on is indeed Jesus. yup. Man will fail, in more ways than one, man will hurt one another, but our God's the only one who would never let us down. NEVER. We can all take pride in that. I have so much faith that He'll always, ALWAYS be there. God is able to infinitely do more than our highest prayers, dreams, desires, thoughts and hope.

Once you've committed everything into the Lord's hands, every problem, every mistake, every doubt, sooner or later, you're bound to find peace of heart, mind and soul. Yea, you will. God knows. I read somewhere while doing my devotion a couple of days ago that God will not put us into a trial too big we cannot overcome it. God works in His own ways. I really can't wait till the next CG. yea. Joanne even asked me to lead worship! I'll pray that God guides me:)

On another note, it's Tiffanie, Daddy and Aaron's birthday today! Looong day. Hope I take loads of pretty-looking pics! :)

xoxo, elvyna.

Our song has played its last note, it's time to close the door.

Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails.
Proverbs 19:21

Have you ever met someone who didn't know what they want and eventually caused you hurt? I have.
Have you ever met someone who hasn't been totally honest with you though they say they will? I have.
Have you ever met someone who took your heart and said they'll take care of it but didn't? I have.
Have you ever met someone who betrayed you? I have.
Have you ever met someone who promised you many things but failed to fulfill them? I have.
Have you ever met someone who made you cry to sleep every single night? I have.
Have you ever met someone who you'd love to hate but your heart just can't do it? I have.
Have you ever met someone who did all the above to you but you still love them as much as you did from the first day you loved them? I have.

*sigh* ~I wish this was all a bad dream I could wake up from~

xoxo, elvyna.