May 30, 2008

I dreamt of flying. Flying far far away to never land.

This is one picture which really touched me, somehow. Took it from the book/journal (which I absolutely love) Amos gave me. There's a poem along with it which is equally as touching and inspiring too but I'm just to lazy to type it here. Anyways, this is random.

It's been a really loong few weeks or so. Exams are coming up, I'm only starting to read up on lecture notes now. They're probably a billion notes piled up on my table now. Just finished reading on thyroid and parathyroid glands. Took 4 hours just to cover adrenal glands. Gosh Elvyna, if you're gonna take so long to finish one sub-sub-sub topic, you won't be able to finish studying everything in time. sighs. I know i know, but I'm just SLOW :(

Grandpa's not really holding up well. Doctors diagnose him with anaemia (deficiency of haemoglobin-a compound in red blood cells). He's back home now but he's going to be admitted into the hospital again next week to have a few tests like bronchoscopy and CT scans on the thorax and abdomen region done. Apparently, there's something else, something bigger behind his illness. The doctors suspect cancer. I really pray and hope it's not. REALLY. But if it is God's will, so be it. So yea, been driving grandma back from the hospital every night for the past week or so. Next week again. It's the most I can do. Sometimes I feel so helpless, caught in the middle, worthless in this whole situation. I can't offer anything but transport. sighs.

I LOVE them both so so much. Many things have happened in my life recently, and looking back now, I think I've grown and matured from these incidents. Drawn closer to God, my family, friends. I've learnt to see things in a different perspective now. Maturity comes in different forms. I'm aiming for spiritual maturity. yup.

P/S # There's always, ALWAYS a RAINBOW at the end of the day, after everything's been said and done.

xoxo, elvyna.

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