Thanks for the reminder that You're never gone away (:

Romans 12:2

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is- His good, pleasing and perfect will.

Just a little reminder I saw today (:

xoxo, elvyna.

The unknown.

Sometimes I just don't know what I want.

Its funny how sometimes my feelings are so powerful, so strong. Of a great magnitude and just so indisputable. Yet other times, they're so faint, so unsure, just floating around.

xoxo, elvyna.

Fifth.

Caught up with my favourite 5 year old at her birthday party on Sunday. Been a year since I last saw her. She was initially coy towards me when I saw her and wished her and gave her her present which I got from UK. In a while though, she started being chatty and came up to me loads of times to tell me stories of her life. By the end of the night, we were as close as before again, and it felt as if I never left.

My arm got tired by the time I got home from carrying her almost the whole night. Come on, how could I say no to a face like hers when she looked up and asked me to carry her?

There's just something about the innocence of a child that brings a smile to my face. If only everyone was as honest, as open and as innocent as a child. I wonder what kind of world that would be then. To have child-like faith, what amazing things could happen from that!

Favourite 3 people (:

Polaroids are so fun especially with people I love!

xoxo, elvyna.

Confrontations aren't my forte.

Words cannot express what I'm feeling right now.

The overflowing emotions and thoughts, all scattered in my brain like pieces of a puzzle that have already been poured out but haven't been put together yet. How do I even begin putting the puzzle pieces together? I haven't seen the end product before, I don't know how it'll look like- would it be pretty? or would it be ugly? Do I really want to know what the outcome of it is?

Whoever said: "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me" obviously had no experience in life. Words DO HURT. ALOT. Especially when they're displayed out there for the whole world to see. It feels as if every single word pierces the flesh like a sharp knife, causing me to bleed away but not enough to die yet. That's how I felt reading it.

I felt so ashamed reading it, somehow trying to get my head around the false accusations you were making about me, but I couldn't understand why you did it. When I was reading it, I was concious that probably about 100 other people may have read it/were reading it/were going to read about it, sneering and laughing away as they realize that I was the one you were talking about.

Tell me, how is it "love" if all it brings you is heartbreak and despair? And how is it fair if it is not reciprocated?

All I know is, you shouldn't have fallen in love with me.

Nothing's ever going to be the same again.

xoxo, elvyna.

BACK.

Been a while since I blogged. I'm back in KL finally, after one year. It's good to be back, but I haven't had the time to rest and get over my jet lag and I've already started electives at Hospital Kuala Lumpur (which I totally hate). And the sun, OMG, the SUN is out to get me, I'm sure. I've probably already had 8 outfit changes since I got back like 3 days ago. I think UK has decreased my tolerance for heat :(

I PASSED my intermediates exam btw! God is awesome, AGAIN! (: So yea, guess who's a 4th year medic now? :P

Anyways, will blog more soon once I get over this jet lag. So many people to meet up with, so little time for myself to rest. That's why I didn't want to let people know I'm back. No offence, I wanna meet up still, just not so soon. Electives are stupid I'm planning to skive tomorrow. Alright then. Gonna sleep now because it's 7am in the UK.

Tah.

Here's a picture of my room in my new place in the UK right after I moved in. I miss it already!

xoxo, elvyna.