Constant reminders.

Faith. Holding on. Being thankful for the little things, the blessings in disguise (:

xoxo, elvyna.

Grey skies.

Been really down the past few days. I've never felt so stressed in such a long while. Maybe that's why I'm not used to it. Labs are getting crazier. My final report is due in 2 weeks and my supervisor still wants me to go in everyday up till the deadline. I don't know how I'm going to find time to analyse and write out my results by this weekend (yes, she wants it by this weekend) but I'll try. 4000 words. It wouldn't be that hard, no? Yea, it wouldn't be that hard if it was just words but I've got to add graphs and collate all my data from all the experiments I've ever done since day 1.

It's a mad rush. A really REALLY mad one. But I'll make it, I always have. I just got to persevere. Hold my head up high, suck in the tears and march on. This is life. This is going to be the longest 2 weeks of my life.

At least I'll be going home in 3 weeks. Can't wait.

Ending with a phrase a dear friend once told me:
" Sometimes God answers our prayers in ways we cannot understand. It is when His ways are confusing, that we need to learn to trust His heart."

xoxo, elvyna.

Trying.

I'm trying to find something to be thankful/happy about today. But I can't.

I feel so guilty for that yet at the same time I just can't see the silver lining in all this. I hope today's just "another one of those days" and tomorrow I'll wake feeling much better.

Note to self: Depression is a pretty good appetite suppressant.

I really pray I will have the strength to hold on this time :(

xoxo, elvyna.

Amsterdam.

Quick update of what I did during the Easter Break.

Went to Amsterdam for 4 days with friends (:

The kitchen of the apartment we rented.
Stairs to go upstairs. All the stairs in Amsterdam were really narrow and scary :/
Main mode of transport in Amsterdam. So many around!
A cafe we chanced upon while walking in the city. Had one of the best Red Velvet cakes I've ever tasted.
Canal cruising (:
Before I fell asleep for a while from the 1 hour long ride -_-"
Dam square.
Essentials. Bought the guidebook from the book flea market (:
Cool stuff on sale in the flea market.
Yummy Indonesian food for lunch before going to Keukenhof. Gado-gado.
Delicious satay chicken with peanut sauce.
With JiaXin and Jason! (:
Petting a dragon in Keukenhof park (:
The pretty tulips. Most weren't blooming yet cos the weather is still too cold. *bummer* :(
So excited when I saw this. How cool is this? A tulip breed named after my country! Too bad the weather back home is unsuitable to grow tulips.
100 over breeds. Like a flower heaven :D
My favourite thing about Amsterdam- The AMAZING Stroopwaffle (that's a waffle sliced thinly in the middle stuffed with caramel sauce)
Heineken's from Holland. I DID NOT know this before the trip.
Housemate and his free beer!
Delicious chocolate tart in a random cafe (: Everything seems to taste good.
Lastly, the boy enjoying his Dutch french fries. The fries in Holland are actually really really yummy!

And that's the end of my short, but extremely fun and memorable trip to Amsterdam. Back to the labs tomorrow :(

xoxo, elvyna.

Diet, take 15262473.

So I'm starting with a healthy diet again. Been binging over the past couple of days in Amsterdam letting loose I feel it's time to be healthy! Let's hope this lasts. It actually tastes surprisingly good though so this could work (:

Pics from Amsterdam will be up soon!

xoxo, elvyna.