Superficiality.

I'm in a terrible horrible mood.

That's right. I am.

Long story short, I just want to rant about how superficial people are nowadays, even family. You'd think people who brought you up and taught you important lessons/values of life would walk the talk. What happened to all the "not judging a book by its cover" talk? Or "it's the inside that counts" bullshit? So disappointed in so many people I used to look up to.

I know we live in a society where appearance is everything. Or at least, important. Good looks, a slim figure, the brand of clothes you wear are just some examples. That I know and can accept. But amongst family? Really? Is there a need for all the superficial and materialistic comparisons? If my life were to be measured by what I look like, or what I wore, or what brand of handbag I'm currently using, then where do the "insides" come in the picture? I'm content and happy with what God has given me in this life. I may not be the best looking person in a room, or have the nicest body or the most expensive piece of clothing, but does that make me any less a person? :( :(

I've been criticised and insulted time and time again. But not to this intensity, not this much. I'm about close to breaking point, and worse of all, it's by people I call family. I really need an intervention. Part of me says let it go, it's childish to take it to heart, but a part of me is holding on and replaying the words they've said again and again in my head. And truth be told, it hurts, big time. Words.DO.HURT.

xoxo, elvyna.