donut drool! :D

Quick update:
Fish biscuits I'm currently addicted to.
Plants vs zombies! damn fun (: haha.
Cutest zombies EVER! (:

P/s# heard there was an earthquake that hit samoa islands region and tremors could be felt in m'sia. i didnt feel anything though :s but i do hope everyone's ok!

xoxo, elvyna.

Even when I fail You, I know You love me.

It's the start of a new system in Semester 4. The REPRODUCTIVE system. lol. dunno why but i just felt like capslock-ing the thing. haha. It should be pretty interesting, the stuffs we learn, hope it'll get in my head :/ Learnt bout' anatomy of male reproductive system today, first lecture. Wasn't that bad. Understood what the lecturer was saying. Spermatogenesis and testicular lesions lecture tmr. yay! *insert sarcasm*

Cheerleading practises are resuming starting this week, but intensive/hardcore/can-die almost everyday training starts next week, after the captain finishes her exams. So yea, can say I'm doing quite a good job in keeping myself busy. Time flies faster when you're busy no? That's what I'm counting on. hmms.

Ooo. I finally got my Blackberry data services from maxis. So it's like a super phone now (sorry, ignore the noob-ness). I can do so much with it (read: tweet 24/7 HAHA!), minus the most important function i was hoping would work - the Blackberry messenger :/ Hope it'll be fixed soon though. Kinda fed up going back to Maxis for the past 3 days already -_- oh, and dont get me started on their never ending lines which makes me wonder if they'll EVER call my number. BAHH! :/ frustrated even thinking bout' it.

On another note, I actually ate my first ever proper Red Velvet Cupcake not baked by me! haha. Now I know how it's supposed to taste like. heh (:


Oh, and here's Ice Shaken Passion Tea Lemonade! My newly discovered love
I wonder why ;)
xoxo, elvyna.

And I want you to know, you couldn't have loved me better.

Just got back from Kajang today. Grandpa looks so different. So thin, so fragile. I felt so useless just watching him that way. Saying a little prayer in my heart for him made me feel better, but did it make him feel better? He was talking to my brother about church and stuffs. Asking bout' my religion. I should've been there. He keeps talking bout' how he wouldn't survive for very long. Saying his "time" is almost up. Does he know how much it hurts me to hear those words? I've got to hold back the tears everytime he starts talking about these things.

He overstuffs himself with food, saying he's got to enjoy while he can, knowing that by doing that, he'll just vomit back out everything he's just eaten. It really sucks to have a total gastrectomy. And now, the doctors are suggesting he does chemotherapy but my uncle wouldn't allow it saying my grandpa's too weak and wouldn't be able to make it through the process :(

The doctors found that the cancer has metastasized to his lymph node :( OMG. DAMN you cancer. seriously.

Just get out of the lives of people I love.

xoxo, elvyna.

when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you :(

sigh. All good things must come to an end. Not the ultimate end, no, but just, an end.
'Twas the best summer I've ever had. really. You made it happen (:
Good times, bad times, we'll make it through. Thanks for everything.
I'll miss you much :(


What am I scared of you ask? well, I dont know. Insecurities. In general, i guess. There are so many things to be afraid of, but i'll learn to have faith. Added with trust and commitment. It's not gonna be easy. It really isn't. But as long as we're in this together, I'll persevere.*sigh*

Distance sucks.

♥ always in my heart.

xoxo, elvyna.

and i know You are everything to me, there's nothing else i need anymore.

It's been a really emotional night. Maybe partially cos' I've been puking the night away or maybe cos' I'm just really exhausted from cheerleading practise everyday for the past 3 days. But whatever happens, I know I'm strong enough to make it through. Not because of my own strength, but because of His. Not because I'm doing this alone but because I've got the best close friends in the world. Thanks chee and wen. You guys mean so so much to me. Seriously.

And it's really creepy to have someone feel the exact same way as you do at the same time. But in a way, it feels nice to be understood too. Like completely understood. I'm glad I've got you.

I really need a break from all these things. CF camp. So looking forward to start over from there. It's gonna be a new beginning. I owe this to myself. I need this.

xoxo, elvyna.

And I don't know how it gets better than this.

Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is mighty to save, He is mighty to save,
Forever, Author of Salvation, He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

CF camp is this weekend! So excited somehow. I really pray that everything goes well. I've got a good feeling bout' this (: It's gonna be awesome! Those who haven't signed up, sign up now!! (: teehee. promoting wei.

1234.

xoxo, elvyna.

You're the only one I wish I could forget, the only one I love to not forgive.

Been really busy with cheerleading and House cup stuffs lately that I haven't really had the time to do any other thing. Played netball that day (note: I can't even play though i've played a few times) :/ So IMU cup is ongoing and its pretty tiring since practises are almost every other evening for the sports I'm taking part in. Gotta train more for squash too :/ I.need.to.sleep.

BAHH! anyways, Sem 4 has been pretty okay as of now. Nothing "heavy" yet. And it's been a good beginning to the semester, I've already begun studying in the library! Nerding much? o_O LOL. Hope it'll last though.

There's so many things I want to say. But I just don't know the words to use to describe it all. How I wish my heart and mind could be opened up and people would understand just by seeing the stuffs i'm feeling inside. If only.

xoxo, elvyna.