The space between my fingers are where yours fit perfectly (:

Just finished decorating my SUPER chocolate cupcakes (ok, I don't know what it's called but its DAMN chocolatey!). The cupcake is chocolate, there's a chocolate filling in it, and the frosting's chocolate too! haha. Overdose on chocolate much? :D First time making this flavour and first time making something with a filling! haha. Hope it's yummy, i havent tried it yet. It's a bit late for a cupcake right now. Gave one to bro though and he said its nice, but then again, don't think I can really take his word for it. haha.

Ooo, and I love the cupcake box I bought from the baking supplies shop. So cool it can hold the cupcake in place. Now I won't have cupcakes falling all over the place when I'm transporting them. Happy! (:

Darn tired now. Better sleep since I've got selectives tmr.

hmm.. What should I bake next? (:

xoxo, elvyna.

Didn't they always say we were the lucky ones?

Hmm. I just feel like talking about relationships today. I dont know why. I feel like everyone's got their own point of views about relationships but which is the "right" view? or wait, is there even a "right" view? I honestly don't know.

I've always liked the dating part when it comes to relationships. The part where boy meets girl, boy falls for girl, boy tries to impress girl and boy really cares and takes notice of every little thing that the girl likes/dislikes. Those are probably the sweetest times. Boy wants to please the girl in everything he does so she'll accept him.

Then the girl accepts boy and they get together. Things are still pretty much the same in the beginning, both are still madly in love, still in the "high" of being together. Then out of nowhere, without anyone expecting, things take a turn. Boy and girl starts showing their true colours. Girl gets jealous of little things the boy does, boy doesn't say I love you that much anymore, girl takes it the wrong way, gets angry, boy.......etc etc.

Then it's all about just getting through each day without fighting or just one day without saying a mean thing to one another. Both have to force themselves to give in or tolerate the other. What happened to forever and ever and happily ever after? It's like they're in a relationship without being in a relationship. What does it really mean to be in a relationship? Just the status? Or to be able to do couple-y stuffs?

I think there's always a limit once you're with someone. It doesn't mean you have to stop your old ways of whatever you like doing but maybe just tone it down a bit, as a sign of respect to your other half. Being in a relationship should NEVER weigh you down, make you cry yourself to sleep every night or make you feel bad about yourself. If it does, it's not worth it. Really. You deserve much better.

So back to the question, what does it really take to be in a relationship? Go figure.

xoxo, elvyna.

P/s: I don't even know if half the things I say here even makes sense. oh wells 0_O

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter, as long as i'm laughing with you.

Exams are over! (well, they were over last week but my internet was is down so I'm blogging from IMU's computer). Anyways, it was pretty okay I think, after i went to the feedback session- can pass la :/

Today's the Christmas party thing organized by Christian Fellowship and Catholic Society. Had the lunch on in the Atrium which ended at 2. Been busy doing decorations for the atrium the past 2-3 days since Jeremy kinda "volunteered" me to be in charge for deco. The end result was quite pretty I must say, and I'm so proud of all those who helped me, and grateful too. The next part of the event is later on tonight at 7.00pm. It's gonna be even more awesome than the day one cos' there's drama by the semester 1's and dance and all. Can't wait!!!

So I'm having my selectives now. Chose Community Medicine, I don't know why. It has to be the most boring thing on earth !! :/ Should've chosen like Greek Mythology thingy or Literature. Anyways, too late to regret, better make the best of it. Btw, class is at 8-10.15 am EVERYDAY :( Meaning I've gots to wake at 6.30am :( Meaning I can't sleep at 3-4am anymore or else i'd die (x_x)

Gonna be busy starting this weekend, filled with practises for Christmas drama in church. Saturday from 11-2pm and Sunday from 2-5pm :/ Can die from overpractising. Oh wells, I'm not really complaining, kinda like it (: I like my song. Hope I wont get a sore throat or something come that day.

On another note, I'm completely absoultely going insane, i think. Exams're over but I have nothing to do so I'm studying again :/ Actually I think its kinda good to start studying now since my End of Semester exam for Sem5 is in like~6 months. Not much time for 9 systems I must say :S Oh oh! And I'm also like addicted to Michael Buble's new album, and also OwlCity (although almost all the songs sound the same-I still can't differentiate it but yea, it's just nice to listen to). Paramore's new album is damn nice too (: I always think Hayley Williams rock (:

OK. I think I should stop. I'm writing so much. Its been a while since I had such a lengthy wordy post with no pictures. argh! I should start my jogging plan now before christmas comes and then there's no turning back. Help. *gulps*

I wanna dye my hair/straighten and also go shopping! ok. lol. bye.

xoxo, elvyna.

Maybe we're friends, maybe we're more, Maybe it's just my imagination.

Got a really encouraging email today. Thanks, you know who you are (: Wouldn't have made it through without you always by my side through the years. Hugs.

I wish I wasn't so weak.
I wish I wouldn't always faint for no reason.
I wish I wouldn't make grandma worry :(
I wish I can still end up becoming a doctor despite it all.....

xoxo, elvyna.

Let it rain down and wash everything away,maybe tomorrow the sun will shine.

Hey Blog ( i should name you),

Long time no talk. I'm really bored right now. And I know I should be studying. I really want to study but nothing I read seems to be going in my head :( It' so depressing you know? And the stress is making me sick to the core. I hate this feeling. Exam's next Thursday. Do you think I can pass the exam? My PMS matching depends on this exam. I can't afford to screw up, which is why I'm even more stressed :/ I don't know if you know what I'm saying. I just need to rant. Blog blog blog.

If only you could reply me. DAMN. My brain's gone seeing how i expect my blog to reply me (o_O)

ARGH! I want a SUPER brain! capacity= unlimited! if only..

I miss my best friend in UK! :( Felt the rush of nostalgia when I talked to her last week. I miss her! :( Exam stress, go away! I don't like how you're screwing with how I'm feeling :( :(

xoxo, elvyna.

And when you left, you kissed my lips. I never want to see you unhappy.

Just had Rakuzen for the first time today. It's pretty nice actually (: Love the soft shell crab maki though I would prefer if it was more bite-size like at Zanmai's. Tried fish also for the first time :/ salmon (RAW ok?!) and some other weird cooked fish. The bf la, made forced me to try some -_- Took a teeny bite then gave it back to him. ew. Now I remember why I don't eat fish. It's just disgusting :S

I'm happy! Maybe it's the present, or maybe, it's just you. Such an unexpected surprise! heh.

One more month baby (:

xoxo, elvyna.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity.

Summatives are on the 26th of November. This week's the first week for renal system, and also the first week I'm starting to study. A bit late right? Sigh. Dunno why but I just don't have any motivation at all to study this semester compared to previous ones. Is it because it's not an EOS? or because I've been too involved in extra-curricular stuffs? I don't know, but whatever it is, I better start speeding up and studying right if I want to do well.

3 weeks left, 3 systems more, am i game for it?
God PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help me :(

And I don't know why but it's still bugging me that my parents forgot my birthday :( *sigh* should just let go and move on :( but it keeps staying in my head. arrgh. I'm focusing waay too much on this. damn unhealthy.

Here I am, and i stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.

xoxo, elvyna.