.::because::.

Big Girls don't cry..

even though all the radio channels are playing super-emo songs simultaneously:(




Cause I'm broken.

I don't need the pain. Once is enough.

Everyone is telling me stuffs. To make things better or worse, I really don't know. I don't know what to do. But I know what's RIGHT to do. I think the best way is to be alone in this. I can't tell anyone anything anymore. Never again. People I think I trust, they all just keep betraying me. I can't stand the disappointment. Not just from people, friends, close friends. He never did like me. I can't believe I was so naive into believing that he did. All his freaking stupid lies. And all the while, he was falling for her. What does that make me? I'm glad everyone's gone for a change. I'm glad they won't have a chance to hurt me anymore. Emotions are running wild. He took all the love I had to give and threw it away. Just like that. What the heck, it's meaningless. Who gives a damn bout all the whining?

I'm done listening to excuses. It's bleeding inside. The pain's unbearable (and it's not even cos of him). I've learnt my lesson. Don't trust people easily. Honestly, I'm pitying him now. Pathetic.

xoxo, elvyna.

Fallen out.

It was a really emotional night. The crying- haven't done it for some time for that reason. I said the F-word. For the first time. I was THAT pissed/angry/sad/glad. Mixed feelings that add up to God-knows-what. What does he think I am? Some person that will never get angry or sad? Someone without emotions? What the hell. He knew I wasn't alright and yet, he still talked. I said I'll hate him for the rest of my life. He didn't reply.

Woke up today feeling better. It's like nothing matters anymore. He can do whatever he want, and I don't wanna know or be a part of it. I don't mind listening occassionally, but I just can't face him-for now. And you ever got the feeling when you thought you knew someone but they turn out to be totally different? I guess you never really know people. Even friends. No one is honest. I wonder how much more I don't know.

Whatever it is, I think I've successfully fallen out of love with him. I hope I did.

xoxo, elvyna.

A day of farewells.

Before I start telling bout my day, I just want to share something really stupid. As I was walking in my room to get the memory card from my camera, I stupidly walked into the bed frame and now I have a stupid and VERY painful blue-black on my left shin. Shites:( I am seriously so clumsy all the time:(

Anyways, went for lunch with Pearly at Delicious in BV2 today. The last time I'll see her until she comes back next. She was still the same ol' funny and nice Pearly. haha. Was fun chatting and catching up with her. After lunch, went around the boutiques in Bangsar for a lil retail therapy (bought a pair of heels for damn cheap-so proud!) then I dropped her home (i seriously don't know why I thought she lived in bangsar all this while:S) cos I had a Starbucks outing with Dyan after that.

Camwhoring in my car at the 3-minute traffic light to Centrepoint.

So yea, met up with Dyan. JunKing came half an hour later and park illegally some more. Typical. It was alright at first. We were chatting as per normal, and then she started feeling jittery with butterflies. It was contagious and pretty soon after that, I started feeling that way too. JunKing said he felt his muscles were weak but I have a feeling it's cos he was having a fever (btw, get well soon!). But that all aside, I think it's cos Dyan's finally leaving-for real- like seriously-for real REAL. Which is really really sad :( sighs..Guess now I'll really really be having Starbucks redrawal syndrome. Oh wells, it's probably for the better. Lastly, just wanted to say, I'll miss you Pearly and Dyan, and I miss you too Sashi. (oh yea, junking too since I dont see him AT ALL nowadays :P)

xoxo, elvyna.

Farewell Shair Ein ):

Went out to OU today for Shair Ein's farewell (well, sorta). Let's see.. I've known her since my primary school days and we were quite close then up till now. Especially in college. Sigh. I'm so gonna miss her craziness and hysterical antics. Couldn't hold back tears then. She's a really great friend and I'm gonna miss her loads! She's coming back in Dec so I'll look forward to that :)
We have the exact same cameras. What a coincidence!
Jon, Shair Ein and I at Chilli's. Chicken Crispers!!On a superly-duperly random note: I got 2 new pets. Two hermit crabs (wanted one but was scared it'll die of loneliness). The one on the left is Bobo and the one on the right is Coco. Haha. Great names eh?:) They're eating my sunmaid raisins in the pic!! Yummy;P I really hope they won't die on me. I'll try my best!!! :D

xoxo, elvyna.

Quickie!

I think I OD-ed on Caramel Frapp these past few weeks..Been drinking about 4-5 cups a week!! arrgh! Caramel Light with extra caramel please!! pfft. I don't know what's the point. The irony :s Gonna cut down now since my Starbucks buddy has gone to Australia :( Take care buddy!
xoxo, elvyna.

Happy CNY!

Just wanted to wish everyone who reads this blog a very Happy Chinese New Year!!

Hope you guys get like loads of ang pows and all yea? Eat more snacks and mandarin oranges. Put on more weight so I won't look so fat when compared relatively. Wee!! Kidding la. Well, not really.

Anyways guys, have loads of FUN!! Gong Xi Fatt Cai!! (:

xoxo, elvyna.oh.look what I found in OU! :)