Missing him.

It's been a while.

xoxo, elvyna.

Reminiscing.

Found my old journal from 2008 a couple of days ago and spent time reading through it again. I've definitely come a long way since then looking back now. I was such an emotional wreck and it kinda got in the way of a lot of things.

It was also the year where I experienced my first death in the family, which broke me.
Even though it all seemed so tough during the time, in retrospect now, I really thank God for being there through it all and bringing me to where I am today.

Just to end things in this post, and also to prove how much of an emotional wreck I used to be, here's an excerpt from my journal:

" The first thing I do when I wake up is think of you,
Your smile, your touch, everything that makes you you,
But right now, the feeling's not right, 
You're not mine to keep anymore.
You said we're over, you've got to move on, 
Left me behind even though you said you'll never let go,
Hardships and sorrows are mine alone to face now,
Your warm hugs and comforting arms now seem so far away.

Who am I to you? How much do I mean, I really want to know,
Cos' you still mean the world to me, same as when I first loved you. "

Ah, and the memories come flooding back.

xoxo, elvyna.