Could've loved you all my life if you hadn't left me out in the cold.

Been about a week plus since I last blogged. Studying for exams can really tire me out so easily. Been sleeping on average about 4 hours a day for the past 2 weeks, I feel so sleep deprived but I've no more time to study if I sleep so much :( I really hope I can make it through the next couple of weeks before my EOS5 and I hope I'll finish studying everything by then :/ Praying real hard.

I think it's exam period for almost everyone out there so to you guys, All the Best and Study Hard so we can all play hard after exams! Partner school matching results would be out this week so wish me luck guys! Not sure if I really want what I initially thought I wanted anymore but we'll see where God wants me to go. Doesn't really matter to me anyways.

I need to stop thinking unnecessary stuffs and start focusing on stuffs that needs to be focused on. If only you could look inside my head, you'll see how jumbled up it is and how messed up things are :/ Good thing only I know how it's like. On another note, I seem to be accidentally injuring myself alot lately :( Whacking myself here and there by accident, it's not even funny how many bruises I have all over my body already :( Gotta be more careful I guess.

Anyways, gotta get back to them lecture notes so I'll leave ya'll with two songs I'm currently DAMN addicted to.





Just tell me you don't love me
Tell me you don't feel the same way that I do
Tell me I don't make you smile
Like I do when you walk in the room
You're so hard to let go.

xoxo, elvyna.

Brain oh brain, why are you so hard to comprehend ?!

And once again I find myself asking, "Why did I choose to do medicine?"

Persevere on Elvyna. Find strength in Him. Have faith, in Him.

Romans 5:3-5 Indeed, there is hope because of Christ.

xoxo, elvyna.

Studying is my life now :(

Om nom nom-ing animal biscuits whilst studying at 4am. A glimpse into my life as of now. Sad huh? :( At least the biscuits were yum (:New stationeries to help me through studying! Daddy says I need to grow up soon, I don't care ! :P So kyoot right? LOVE LOVE LOVE!

xoxo, elvyna.

They say if you love someone enough, you'll let them go.

I want to tell a story of something that happened in my day.

So today I was driving in MidValley's carpark and whilst trying to exit, there was this old couple. Both looked pretty old, probably around the 70-80 year old range. So they wanted to cross over to the other side of the "road" or wtv you call it in carparks. Problem was, there were too many cars passing by each time they tried to cross.

When I reached right in front of them, I stopped, and signalled for the old man to cross. He said thanks and then grabbed the old lady's hand and started guiding her across. She had a walking stick and was walking really slowly and all but not once did he let her hand go. He just kept supporting her the whole way. She took a while to cross, but the whole time I was observing them, the old man kept turning to face me and say thank you.

At that moment, just watching how he was patiently guiding her across and how he was so grateful that I had let him pass, just left me overwhelmed with emotions. Well, reading this may not seem much to you guys, but the whole setting and the old man's expression and the way he looked at his wife while holding her hand across, was just something you'll have to see to feel. To see that true love does exist, even when you're at a ripe old age, really touched me. To see that what I've always dreamt of having could actually be real and not something from my imagination just hit straight home to my heart.

So what happened after that? As I was watching them, I felt so touched that I cried. Yea. I CRIED. I had no idea why but my tears just kept flowing. I was so embarrassed the old man would see me and think I was weird or something :/ Oh well, I'm a sucker for true love scenarios like that. It's like watching something out of a movie but even better, because you know it's for real and things like this do happen to real people.

All in all, I was just really happy for them, seeing them and happy that our paths crossed today. Because today has showed me that there is such a thing as true love, no matter how old you are and that reignited the hope in me, to know that i want what the old man and old lady have, and to know that someday, in the distant future, i may be lucky enough to find just that person who'll lead me across the road when I need him to (:

xoxo, elvyna.

You made my day (:

Was feeling a bit moody and agitated this morning in uni. I think I even 'scolded' a few people :S Anyways, when I thought things couldn't get any better today, Daniel gave me a present (: It was so unexpected and it was so sweet. He said it's a present sort of to encourage me to study. It was so thoughtful of him (: In addition to that, he also sent me to my car parked on the hill when I was leaving uni. Double blessing (: Totally made my day!

Asymmetrically wrapped present with note/card.
Animal biscuits! So cute right? See also damn happy already. I damn sayang wanna eat :/It has found its place in my tupperware of midnight study snacks together with mini cheese crackers as well as Mcvities digestive biscuits. They can become friends now (:

On another note, I started my diet plan today! Exam season is rolling in and I'm gonna eat, study eat study for a while now so gotta watch what I eat from now on to prevent excessive weight gain! :/ Hopefully it works. *fingers crossed*

xoxo, elvyna.