And we know it's never simple, never easy.

Happy 18th Birthday Bro! Hope you had a great one! (:

Hugs hugs hugs, kiss kiss kiss! You're my favourite-st bro ever ! that's cos' you're my only bro.lol.

xoxo, elvyna.

when i close my eyes, you drift away. i think of you and everything's ok. i'm finally now believing.

I've finally turned 20! no more teenage years! I don't feel much of a difference though. Oh wells, thanks to everyone who wished me and gave me hugs and gave me surprises and presents. I'm really grateful to have friends like all of you who care so much! Love u all! (:

xoxo, elvyna.

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you.

I think there's something wrong with me. I don't know how to appreciate things that are right here in front of me. Instead, I either look at the past or too far ahead. Why do I never learn? If I keep focusing on those things, I'll lose hold of the present. And I don't want to lose hold of the present.

Elvyna, get a grip.

I can't be feeling this way everytime something comes up or when something happens. I hate myself for feeling this way. It really sucks. Holding it all inside. I need an intervention. Better yet, a revelation. Its been so long, why's it back now to haunt me? why now?

Some memories, no matter how much you hold on to it, NEEDS to be erased. If only I could, I would. I really would. There's only so much I can take. I don't want to break down everything I've tried so hard to build up. I don't want to relive everything again.

i need help.

xoxo, elvyna.

HAVOC!!

So these are the pictures from cheerleading and Wen's Birthday dinner:


with mei xin and sam.
stacie.
Jonathan the CHEERLEADER.
With Kor Woi- the guys in Hydra had to use pom poms too :/With my brother - Mark!!!
Meixin, wen, joshua, yawshing, me!
Draco-ians!
HAHA. there's a story behind this pic.
Mark, me, MeiXin, Boons!

With Lilian- she got gold! Proud of her(:
Crazy girl i met during cheer who always whacks my ass -Felicia.
Shoulder sitting Jade. My backs stronger now cos of this (:
Goodest friend- Jien.
Manlo piggy backing me! (:
Wen shoulder sitting Meixin.
MEDT 108.Miss cheer under WeiChin :( She got 2nd. Happy for her! (:
Family loves camwhoring when I'm driving. SO NOT SAFE :/
With sweet<3 Amanda.
Prawn Aglio Olio.
Stacie, Jo Ann, Xiao Wen, Elvyna.

Chee Leong, Lilian (fine fine, steek)


Jon & JoAnn.

Nostalgic pic!

So yea, Xiaowen's gone, life continues :( Studies! :(

xoxo, elvyna.

You've got a smile a smile that could light up this whole town.

And then its one more day away.

Xiao Wen's coming down and staying over at my place. This is too exciting! (:

xoxo, elvyna.

P/s# and this song, Running by No Doubt is describing exactly how I feel that it's replaying on my playlist for the 65764382765th time!

Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me
Im the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
Im so sorry that Im falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Dont let me fall out of love

Chorus:
Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it
(do you think well make it? )
We're running
Keep holding my hand
Its so we dont get separated

Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Dont stop inspiring me
Sometimes its hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Dont make me want to give up

October's HERE ppl!!

Hellos. been like what? 13 days since I last wrote here? this is unacceptable. But i've been so busy with cheerleading its amazing if i can even walk once i'm home. Haha. okay, so maybe I exaggerate a little (:

Anyways, cheer competition is this Friday in IMU, running alongside closing ceremony for IMU cup. Wow. Time does fly. All the sports and training sessions are finally coming to an end. Weee. Time to finally rest after this Friday and start studying! I wish I had like superpowers or something so I won't feel so sore after every cheer practise and end up slathering my whole back with deep heat rub + salonplas strips :/ At least it makes the pain go away while it lasts. New place that hurts today- my THIGHS! gotta rub deep heat cream there soon too.

And I dont know what's wrong but I keep forgetting to eat when I've got cheer pract (note: everyday) so yea. Finally got terrible bout of gastric on Saturday night after almost 6 hours of intensive cheer practise. Vomited bile and started crying. Damn disgusting the feeling. Gotta remember to eat!!!!!!!

I better go now. Just had dinner and showered after I got home from cheerleading. Gotta rush and do PBL for tomorrow also since I gotta buy pompoms in the morning. So many things to do, so little time :(

I pray God'll give me the strength to carry on.

Oh, and to all my dental friends, study hard for your exams! Gambateh and jiayou! (:

xoxo, elvyna.