Birthday wishes <3

Thanks everyone for making it such a memorable day. I really really appreciate it. You guys almost, ALMOST made me cry. The surpise, the cards, the gifts, I love you all. So So much. Life in IMU wouldn't be the same without you guys. Thanks Amos for lying to me and making the surprise actually work. Thanks for the last minute present too :) Thanks Jien and Nic for the book, earrings and card. Thanks Sab for the bracelet and letter and cds. Thanks Steek for coming and being the photographer. Thanks sweetheart for the sweet note/letter and the unending hugs. Thanks ManLo for whoa, so many things. You're the sweetest!! :P Thanks Pseudo for the ADORABLE pencilbox. Thanks JinLin for coming and sharing my special day with me. *phew* You guys RAWK!

That being said , thanks to all who wished me via sms and calls as well. I really really do feel touched that you guys, no matter how far away, e.g. UK, Australia, wherever la, you get the idea, would even remember to text a simple birthday wish for me. And the calls, especially the one from best-T, that was great. It was so nice hearing from you. Thanks for the super long text too Nick (if you EVER read this)! And Sashi, for being a tad bit too early though I know the time diff :D

And not forgetting all the Facebook wall posts, thanks to you guys too! I'm so sorry if I dont reply most of it-I'm just too lazy and I need to be studying, but I read every single one of them.
Although I think that Facebook did play a relatively BIG part in "reminding" you guys bout my birthday, I sincerely wanna thank each and every one of you for taking that time off to type me a msg or wall post and give you all an individual warm hug if I could to show my appreciation.

Once again, thank you all. You guys made my day. Love loads!

P/s# Sorry if I dont mention some of your names above. There's really too many people to thank. Just know that I cherish all the thoughts! <3

xoxo, elvyna.

Breakdown and cry.

I got an sms today. I opened and read it. That was it. More lies from you. More words to hurt me. You never ever heard what I said. Does what I think even matter to you? You always say you care, that you want to know. Maybe you do, maybe you don’t. But one thing’s for sure, you NEVER LISTEN to what I’ve said. NOT ONCE. It’s always been about you, you and YOU. And guess what? If that’s what you want, that fine with me. I find no point in arguing anymore. You’ve disappointed me and eaten back on your own words from time to time again, EVERY SINGLE TIME.

You can say one thing today, and the next, you’re a totally different person altogether. I’ve been holding on to everything you’ve said but right now, I doubt you even remembered what you said. I really don’t know you anymore, heck, I don’t think I ever did. Maybe you don’t even know yourself. I’ve never had so much hope in someone before to have them tear me down like this. Never before. What happened to trust? What happened to everything you’ve said? What happened to all the PROMISES?

I should’ve never trusted you. Everything you’ve said was just a lie. A whole bunch of lies. It’s so easy for you isn’t it? It seriously is. No responsibilities, no emotions, no nothing. From what you said, I think you’re just being really really selfish. REALLY. I’ve tried coming to terms with that but this is too much. Just too much. I have feelings too you know? How could you?

This hurts so bad I can’t take it any longer. You’ve really done it this time, I’m broken to bits.

xoxo, elvyna.