If we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

So I'm doing Palliative care starting this week for a week. Done with my Medicine block after that. I can't believe it has been three months since I started. So what have I learnt so far after being posted in Elderly care, Gastroenterology and Cardiology wards? Well, not much theory to be honest, but I certainly did learn to talk and communicate more with patients. To hear them out, even if it's about other things not related to their disease or treatment. Makes one realize they are human too, with their own stories of life, with their own family. It's a really humbling thing to listen to them. Made me do a lot of self reflecting and made me appreciate things/people around me more.

Talked to a patient the other day and we ended up talking about the World War which he fought in, and his family, and his values in life. I somehow related to him and he taught me a few things as well. It's amazing, I wonder if he knew, that he touched my life that day when I talked to him. I'll remember the things he said to me for a long time now. Some reasons why I love medicine: you get to meet people, see things, learn things. It's all a learning process, and I'm ready, like a sponge, to soak up if people are willing to teach. You don't just learn from the consultants or registrars on the wards.

Ah well, enough with my boring talk. Just thought I'd like to share how I feel after being in the hospital for 3 months. Well, that ends Winchester postings for me. Next up, Southampton General Hospital. Hopefully the doctors are friendly and willing to teach as well.

On a separate note, no one said life was easy. Heck, it's a roller coaster ride. But then again, when I've got a rock as strong as Him to hold on to, what's there to be afraid of? I take comfort in that every single day. On days when I feel so weak, with no one to turn to, with family so far away, I know, I know I can always turn to Him. He'll never fail me. He's not just another human, not just another friend who disappoints, He's my God, my everlasting Father who understands and holds me in the palm of His hands because I'm his precious daughter.

So amazing this grace that He shows. I'm forever grateful. Gives me a reason to smile and be thankful everyday (: Gotta stay strong and persevere.

xoxo, elvyna.

You're my sweetest downfall.

Guilty pleasure to celebrate my last day on Clarke ward (Cardiology) in Winchester (:

xoxo, elvyna.

Lucky day! (:

Isn't it just amazing the way He works? (:

xoxo, elvyna.

i still heart london.

Just got back to Southampton after a hectic weekend in London with the dad and bro. They've arrived safely back in Malaysia now and it really breaks my heart that there's nothing to look forward to anymore :( I miss them so much already and it was tough trying to hold back tears even as i hugged them and said goodbye. Goodbyes are never easy, no matter how many times you've said and done it.

So yea, my purse got pickpocket-ed in London over the weekend. Must've happened on Friday night but I didn't realize until i needed it on Saturday morning. Made police report and stuffs but I still need to go back to London to the Malaysian embassy on a weekday to report because my Ic and driver's license was in the purse as well and they're scared people will use it for identity theft or something. Sigh :( No cards, cash. I'd rather they took my Ipod instead :( So many memorabilia I've stored in it. It's quite a traumatising experience actually :( :(

Anyways, at least I didn't get hurt in anyway. Thank God for that. Got to be more alert and careful next time I guess :/ Stayed with the best friend for a night after family left and it was really nice to be with someone closest to family when I was feeling low. Thank God for her too.

Well, last week on Cardiology ward which makes it my last week on Medicine block of my postings. How time flies! hope it'll be an eventful week and things will get better.

xoxo, elvyna.

First entry off the Macbook Pro! (:

So as ya'll know, my dad and bro are around in Southampton/London to visit me! So exciting! Brought them around Southampton on Sunday after church and then to Portsmouth on Monday. Nothing much, but it's just so nice seeing them and hanging out again (: Feels so great being with family, nothing beats that feeling. Anyways, here are some random pics of me and my family on our fun day(s) out!!

P/S: I know I've put on weight, don't comment on that! :( I can't help it it's too cold I need more food!

Trying on bro's new Rayban glasses. I look like one of 'em students from China don't I? :P teehee.

Anyways, gonna go up to London this Thursday to meet up with them again before they leave on Saturday. It's gonna be sad but at least I saw them! (:

Oh, and as the title suggests, I've got my new macbook pro. Still trying to get a hang of it though. Totally different from windows but it's all good so far.

xoxo, elvyna.